You are far more worthy to govern my life, help me to give up my right, you will never do me harm. Help me to say I exist for your purpose and for you alone.
Disney-where dreams come true year of a million dreams
1/8/09 Though we want God's guidance and ask for it, we often do not wait for it. We make decisions based on what our internal logic tells us. Is that logic guided by the Spirit? Or do we sense our own emotional needs, self-esteem cravings?
How I feel like waiting is standing still with no action as the world passes you by. But actually waiting takes more action to accomplish. Does it also require more faith?
"See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains." James 5:7 "God can not be mocked. a man reaps what he sows."
1/19/09 "The center of God's will is our only safety." Betsie ten Boom
1/23/09 wrinkled pages of my Bible left me understanding obedience of hearing His voice and grace Ps. 107, 89
1/28/09 I was tired of trying to do things and events. My focus needed to go back to "my first love (God)" as they say, but I realized that God has never been my first love. I have loved myself more than Him. I must love the Lord rightly first. My prayer for loving people comes from this, to also love people, I must love God.
3/9/09 you are beautiful, I love you. Ps 145:16
I am so proud of my two cousins who graduated. One is a famous artist, the other an amazing lawyer.
5/14/09 "if you want to know God's will you must respond to His invitation to love Him wholeheartedly. God works through those He loves to carry out His kingdom purposes in the world. " Experiencing God-Henry Blackaby
Completed an Olympic distance triathlon with my dad
6/4/09 "Obedience is the outward expression of your love of God. The reward for obedience and love is that He will show Himself to you. If you have an obedience problem, you have a heart problem.
Uniform shopping with my sponsor child in Kenya.
8/5/09 culturally we are afraid to let anyone close to us, because we might have to be real-greet people, spend time with them ( the task can wait, people can't)
Snow in Houston and the joy of sharing it with 9 and 10 year olds.
8/10/09 I can never be content with not being apart of what God is doing. I have seen the hand of God, like Elijah said, realized my sinful nature and will never again be satisfied with doing my own thing for long. It began many months ago as God started to woe me as Lord and reveal to me my love for myself instead of Him. I want to go where He is no matter where that is, not just do good things here in Houston, but those that vest in relationships. We live so earthly and forget that only things for eternity matter. ... I pray give me more of you and that excites me. Will it stretch me out of my comfort? Yes because otherwise I depend on myself.
9/10/09 ways we misuse our tongue: Proverbs 6:17 lying tongue; Proverbs 10:19 when words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise.; Proverbs 12:22;Proverbs 17:9; Proverbs 17:27; Proverbs 18:13;Proverbs 20:19; Proverbs 26:20; Proverbs 26:28; Proverbs 27:2; Proverbs 29:20; Romans 10:14-15 Beautiful are the feet that bring good news.
9/16/09 "Pride is thinking more of yourself than you should. A person who has pride will never see a need for grace, that is why He only gives grace to the humble."
9/20/09 Submit yourself to God can only be done if you do not want to be in control, but humbly step down from "our throne" to let God be on THE throne. Falling into a "trap" of what others think of my actions, guilt and boasting.
10/9/09 the alarm goes off over and over again each time God saying rest, me knowing the night before I made a choice for others things instead of bed. In His grace He says rest until it finally feels like rebellion. My heart does not cry out love and desire, but routine. So I want to avoid, but that is just a play. Am I even asking to see His face?
10/10/09 Jesus said "come follow me" Matt 4:19
A broken relationship with Jesus is the primary reason for prayerlessness or ineffective prayer.
10/19/09 I went to Kenya because God told me to serve, that was the time He gave me to serve. Dealing with thought processes, confusion, calling, focus in the wrong direction and fear of mountain top experiences.
HIDING
10/31/09 As I have been reading 2 Samuel the kings go in and slay everyone after they succeed the throne. I do not want to be anywhere near the throne except for at the feet of Jesus who sits on it. I am too consumed with trying to make my own plans for the future, when James 4 says I am not even promised tomorrow and then it is the Lord who purposes our step, not the plan of man, the Lord's will prevail.
The Grand Canyon-connecting learning in BIG ways
11/27/09 Remind me what hearing your voice sounds like and not to feel guilty if it's not a "grand" thing, but content in walking out obedience because you have called me.
1 Samuel 7:7 When the Philistines heard that Israel had assembled at Mizpah, the rulers of the Philistines came p to attack them. And when the Israelites heard of it, they were afraid because of the Philistines. verse 10 ...the Philistines drew near to engage Israel in battle. But that day the Lord thundered with loud thunder against the Philistines and threw them into such a panic that they were routed before Israel.
Romans 8:31-32 If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, How shall He not with Him also freely give us all things.
The Lord brought about victory, but not before they repented from pagan practices.
"Samuel's lack of trust and patience led Him to appoint his sons. His pride might also have wanted to keep the lineage. Envy leads a person to intimate others. "
Snow in Houston and the joy of sharing it with 9 and 10 year olds.
12/3/09 Another life principle I have been able to practice again-Will you give up something good because it is not in God's will?
12/27/09 In who do I trust?
